16th

A tiring day ending with a burst of energy after properly feeding my body what it needed.

15th

I LOVE LIFE DRAWING!

14th

Bluegh, but a volunteering possibility.

13th

Yorkshire Sculpture Park...I have to go again!

12th

Oops, days mixed up, yesterday should have been today.

11th

A nice peaceful Sunday lunch

10th

Productive, plenty of drawing and research, but yet another frenemy moment.

9th

A tiring day at college, and I'm all drawn out!

8th

Loved college, such a brilliant day, although an awkward evening encounter.

7th

Happy Birthday to me...and water makes chilli consumption worse!

6th

An interesting first day at college with some mixed feelings

5th

Finally made the WordPress move with my main blog

4th

Not long until college now

3rd

Russion dolls are awesome!

2nd

Worrying about money, but trying to focus on a nice bagel, a day about Japan and the sunshine

1st

A walk in the hills cures a difficult day

31st

A lovely day in York, a week until my birthday, and an important realisation

30th

29th

Rather unproductive for my liking

28th

Dr Who, Famous Five, a relaxing Saturday

27th

Fun with sweeties :-)

26th

Gah I hate being unproductive!

25th

Enrolled at college, but the rest of it was...ugh pretty bleh

24th

An embarrassing morning...very very embarrassing

23rd

A good day for my jobhunting skills - rang up, applied online and even handed out CVs.

22nd

Chilled

21st

A brilliant day in Leeds with my brother, the true colours of a so-called friend revealed and a sense of rising self worth!

20th

Still difficult but slowly improving

19th

Quite simply a terrible day, with family, friendship and work problems all coming to a head

18th

A patronising trip and not much else

17th

So nice, so refreshing to talk and paint, with lovely company...a privilege

16th

I am overthinking things again

15th

Why can't some people accept no for an answer?

14th

Productive again :-)

13th

Tired, but accomplished...and we have a wasp infestation.

12th

A brilliant day with brilliant bloggers

11th

Wahay house to myself!

10th

Oops, oops and triple oops

9th

Getting there

8th

My creativity returns, tentatively

7th

The worst day so far

6th

Mixing potions in the park made me feel so much better - maybe I should become a witch?!

5th

Not much better

4th

What a shit day

3rd

Another productive day

2nd

Sarah likes trips to the Post Office!

August is here

An oops but some sales

31st

No b/p and Christmas card success!

30th

Another b/p tired me out, although a nice arty afternoon

29th

Day 5 = I screwed up

28th

Day four and still intact!

27th

Third day in a row and a day out in Leeds

26th

Still going strong

25th

So far so good

24th

A bit of a doofus moment mid morning and the old period is back - yuck

23rd

Confidence boost courtesy of a brilliant day.

22nd

Geez not again.

21st

Ah crap...confidence boost needed.

20th

No b/p!

19th

Gosh darn it...I really need to stop letting naysayers crush my artistic dreams

18th

I've gotten out of sync somehow - 17th = 18th, 16th = 17th and 16th = an arty afternoon!

17th

A quiet day, but no b/p, which is the main thing.

16th

An oops, two sales and then PayPal related stress...gah

15th

A good solid day, with lots of scissors and envelope action

14th

The end of the counselling course and a minor morning blip

13th

Oops but art is firing me on

12th

On a roll!

11th

New art materials and another good day

10th

A nice long walk and things are finally getting back on track

9th

B/p number four...enough is enough

8th

And again with the b/ping yeesh...at least my mental state is slowly starting to improve

7th

Another b/p and massive weight gain of 5kg in a week...perhaps I'm eating too much?

6th

A day of many ups and downs

5th

"So you don't work there anymore?" asked the lady at the post office when I handed her the package with my uniform inside, to which I replied "no thank goodness"

4th

Anxiety from yesterday just won't go away

3rd

Bullying bastard of a manager

2nd

Still going strong!

1st

A good start and lots of yummy food

30th

The first day of the rest of my life - a new beginning.

29th

Double oops

28th

An oops, some drawing and a bleh.

27th

At last.

26th

8 hours down, 8 hours to go.

25th

Artistic experimentation

24th

An amazing day of art in spite of a bungled ball

23rd

New hair, b/p, no new therapist, difficult course night...and alot of hassle surrounding a lost ball.

22nd

Oh why oh why did I have to b/p again?

21st

The birth of a new blog

20th

A relaxing morning and a lovely afternoon with two old friends

19th

The worst customer ever and a tricky shift

18th

Stress-a-thon

17th

Load of crap

16th

A yucky job interview but luckily counselling made the day better

15th

A difficult break up

14th

Applied for three new jobs...I really need another job.

13th

Another hard day at the grindstone yeesh.

12th

Successfully prevented a binge purge, but worried alot about work.

11th

Another day, another binge purge, and plenty of disappointment.

10th

Binge purge - I suck.

9th

An absolutely inspiring meeting with a lovely lady, followed by Iraqi art and counselling course insights

8th

Brilliant book buying, uncomfortable therapy, then I turned therapist to help my friend

7th

Work wasn't so bad today...perhaps this trend will continue?

6th

Morning chill out, afternoon coffee, and an evening worrying about my next shift.

June 5th

I hate tills and customers

June 4th

Delicious breakfast and bakewell tart with a group of artists, sat outside sharing art and being inspired...what a pity I had to leave for home.

June 3rd

Sunshine, wonderful people and a tour of the city followed by a scrumptious meal cooked by my lovely host.

June 2nd

Off to Bristol at midnight!

The first day of June

Therapy, stupid McDonalds phone call induced anger, creative management and best of all, no binge purging today - whoopee!

31st

Stupid Mcdonalds not giving me any shifts and screwing me around = 2 binge purge episodes, one very nearly averted

30th

Not so tiring, but still very glad when it was over.

29th

What a busy crazy way to start a job

28th

No binge purge today thank god, but dreading work tomorrow.

27th

Another binge-purge, and no energy whatsoever - don't know how I'll manage starting my job on Saturday

26th

Getting out of control, tired, and a binge-purge...a pretty epic one.

25th

Oh I do like to be beside the seaside

24th

I hope my new boss is as friendly in real life as he sounds on the phone.

23rd May

Stop thinking the worst.

22nd May

Exploring art therapy is an intense experience.

Ok I've gotten out of sync - 21st

Bullied into becoming an unpaid therapist.

March 19th

Watch out world, I have my badge!

March 18th

A wonderful morning at the park feeding ducks, playing on swings and exploring in the sunshine, then a confusing afternoon therapy session.

March 17th

Greenery and tree climbing - a day inspired by nature.

March 16th

A very lonely day indeed.

March 15th

Lots of sketching, which was good, but so terribly tired...always lacking energy...I know I need to do something about this.

March 14th

An inspiring meeting full of fascinating ideas.

March 13th

Dara O'Briain is a funny guy, but didn't appreciate a rail replacement bus home...boo!

May 12th

Counselling class cheered me up!

11th of May

First therapy session made me think about some stuff...

May 10th

Happy birthday A (brother) and a positive interview.

May 9th

Quite possibly my laziest day ever...come back energy please!

May 8th

An amazing (and tiring!) day in Newcastle.

May 7th

Another tiring day, a hung parliament and uncertainty about the future of British politics.

May 6th

Voting is important!

May 5th

Busy day - a job interview and a college course...whatever next!

May 4th

Needlessly stressing out about Wednesday

May 3rd

A lovely chat with my youngest brother

May 2nd

Pretzels and paper mache!

May Day

Dwelling over a complicated dilemma, but resolved by the end of the day (hopefully!)

30th

Two big problems, and lots of small ones

29th

Blew bubbles and baked gingerbread

28th

An awkward encounter with an old teacher followed by doubt about enrolling on a short but costly course.

27th

I may have found a venue for my paperback book launch...

26th

Finally some coverage and a nice surprise in the post.

25th

Tired

24th

Boring day, then went to see the ballet Cinderella with mum - gorgeous costumes, music and dancing, but too hot in the theatre.

23rd

Things felt slightly better today

22nd

Crap I hate myself

21st

A decent date, then an afternoon in which I spiralled downwards...

20th

Another unproductive day, steak and wondering about therapy...

19th

Gah what a useless day.

18th

I like baking bread.

17th

Vindaloo wohoo but I find pubs incredibly dull.

16th

A skull and crossbones jumper, a yellow little miss sunshine purse, a black watch, mum, Costa and a walk alongside the reservoir in the sunshine, but still worrying about my 'no' - what if they ring me? Demand an explanation? What will I say? What if I give in?

15th

Saying no is hard to do.

14th

A cupcake and an uncomfortable evening

13th

I did it - I went on a date...there was no spark, but it was a good experience and gave me lots of confidence.

The Real 11th

Sunday was pretty dull.

11th

A successful journey through my 'to do' list for once, a good start to what promises to be a challenging week indeed.

10th

Very tired...I think I'm going to have to eat a more varied diet to boost my energy levels.

9th

Me + Mum + Leeds + wine + shopping + nice meal = lots of fun

8th

Ah dear Sheffield how I've missed you...

7th March

Yucky interview...need to sort myself out...busy few weeks coming up.

April 6th

A brocolli incident that I'd rather forget.

Happy Birthday Mum!

Looking forward to Friday.

Easter Sunday

Got cross making mum's birthday cake - what a silly girl I am!

Third of April

Tesco trip, friends round.

And the second day of April..

Lazy me - watched Sound of Music on TV with mum.

April Fools Day

Pizzaaaaaaaaa!

Wednesday 31st

I want to do some voluntary work.

Tuesday 30th

Hmm benefits still not properly sorted, but I've done all I can and I refuse to waste any more time stressing over it.

Monday - I think my dates are out of synch

Trying to get settled and worrying about benefits.

27th

Lovely day in London and got to meet some amazing people!

26th

Interview and benefits stress grrr!

25th

Goodbye Sheffield, and farewell forever my adorable little bedsit....

24th

A good mood, a good day, but the crappy internet is pissing me off a bit - it won't let me comment on some blogs booo!

23rd

Felt low for most of the day, but a combination of bright clothing, room tidying, sketching, gluing and a short walk to the post box in the spring sunshine (before it started to rain!) helped to encourage a happier evening :-D

22nd

He's away for a few days and the house is now lovely and stress free - bliss!

21st

Thanks Nicole for all your support :-) today brought some happy tidying in the morning and some unease in the afternoon.

20th

Overwhelmed.

19th

I hate him so much, I need to get out of here asap.

18th March

Nearly moved out now, my poor little bedsit is feeling lonely and empty.

Wednesday 17th

Keeping grounded in the real world is important.

Today's Tuesday

Fed up.

Yesterday's Monday

I was lazy - should have done more.

Sunday 14th

Happy mothers day mum!

Saturday 13th

Dave Gorman was funny, but not as funny as other comedians I've seen live.

March 12th

A tiffin-tastic lunch with my wonderful friend H.

March 11th

Only one word can describe today: unproductive.

March 10th

I have officially been discharged from the eating disorder service in Sheffield!

March 9th

I've offended someone, but maybe it was the best way to see her true colours...luckily I had coffee in the afternoon with a better friend.

Marginally productive Monday

I painted canvasses for my brother and baked tiffin for my other brother...pity my dad had to spoil things with his temper and horrible words - I'm starting to wonder if moving back to Glossop is a good idea...

Suddenly Sunday

Started off stressful but a break from the internet helped.

Saturrrrrday

Began early with a train to London followed by visits to the Natural History Museum and Whitechapel Art Gallery, then a flying visit to my friend's house where we joined two old friends to do a newspaper crossword.

Frrrrriday

Most of the day was spent needlessly worrying about giving a speech in the evening to launch my ebook, which turned out to be a fantastic night in which the staff and patients from my old clinic gave me a hard bound copy of my book :-)

Thurrrrrrsday

Physio then coffee with a friend

And today the third

Jobcentre discomfort (agh I hate that place!), paper appearance and very glad to hear from an ill friend.

March 2nd

Rather annoyed about a mix-up with my talk, but got a lovely card from the Riverdale manager :-)

March 1st

For some reason I cannot remember what I did!

The last day in February

A dull day that started tinged with unproductiveness and lethargy but ended much more positively, with plenty of things to think about.

Today is Saturday

I had a fabulous day with a fabulous friend.

Friday

A challenging interview, but a better afternoon.

Thursday

I've got some ideas to improve my employment prospects but my back hurts boo!

Wednesday

I'm beginning to think I'm unemployable...

Tuesday

I am officially moving back to Glossop at the end of March eek!

Monday Monday

Unproductive.

Saturday

A little disconnected, some writing done, but a gnawing hunger through the day - I ate plenty so why do you growl at me tummy? Boo!

Friday

A rather nice chill out day with drawing, writing, and nice messages recieved.

Today (Thursday)

Jobs, money, life - I hate being a grown up :(

Yesterday (Wednesday)

Disastrous morning, evening TV interview then couldn't sleep the thoughts all whizzing round my head.

Oops

Forgot about my challenge...today was...stressful.

Day 30

Brain block!

Day 29

A headachy day of dentists, TV and lazy unproductiveness.

Day 28

A visit to the art department in pursuit of a childhood dream makes Sarah a happy bunny!

Day 27

Had to get the train back to Glossop gah...now trying to get organised.

Day 26

http://chipmunkapublishing.co.uk/shop/index.php?main_page=product_info&products_id=1528

Day 25

Back in the Shef, coffee with a friend :-) and an exciting date booked for Friday!

Day 24

A Monday full of realisation and changing perspective.

Day 23

An early start, too much food and feeling huge.

Day 22

Morning passed me by and then I spent an afternoon with friends..my confidence in blogging is declining as I publish posts that no longer inspire comments or my own self-belief.

Day 21

A lazy and productive day with 24, job applications and much pondering on the future.

Day 20

After a lovely night with a friend, I wake up tired and lethargic, not leaving my bedsit until I return to Glossop in the evening, to say goodbye to another friend who will not return for six months.

Day 19

An awkward morning followed by an afternoon of Alfred Hitchcock and beautiful butterfly cards.

Day 18

An anxious day, a binge and purge, a teary confession to mum and a decision to do something about it all.

Day 17

Cake baking with a friend became a day of enjoyment

Day 16

A return to the warmth is preceded by the possibility of a phd supervisor - exciting stuff to brighten my prospective future.

Day 15

Blogging clarity but worry and panic alone in the flat leading to an uncomfortable evening.

Day 14

Some things done, new hope, but a blogging blunder.

Day 13

I'm sick of this depressive existence, thus I think it's time for action...positive action!

Day 12

I spent some time with friends but let a number rule my day and let my worries push me to the verge of tears.

Day 11

Sometimes we need a formal sense of closure, a ceremony to end one journey so that we may begin another, and these important points bridge gaps between the old and new.

Day 10

Dreams crushed, worries rising, trying to find a way to stem the overflowing tide.

Day 9

Passion for change ignited, a return to a slippery Sheffield, and a fixed light wahay!

Day 8

A day of hunger, boredom and a little fear...

Day 7

Some attempts at reconciliation with my much neglected appetite

Day 6

Some worries surface after Sunday lunch.

Day 5

Casserole blackmail, cyberspace loneliness and wondering where all this is going.

Day 4

A packed train, ducks and a date with Jack Bauer.

Day 3

One comment leads to another.

Day 2

Mission accomplised, but I'm no Jack Bauer.

Day 1

A shadow passed over my sunny snow scene.